Like what would I tell my 19 year old self?
ā¢ ā This too shall passā. No, but really. It will, so get to stepping and enjoy every bit.
ā¢ Donāt be such in a rush to fall in love and find the one.
ā¢The importanceās or knowing silence as much as when you speak up.
Honestly this relationship has taught me several and much about myself that I would not have on my own. It has taught me how sour and bitter I can be! It has taught me parts of myself I wish a pond no one. It has taught me that if you allow yourself you will forget how to smile and then? Will have to relearn.
Now, Iām not trying to be negative and focus only on the dark . It has taught me all that as much as it has taught me how sweet and wonderful I CAN be. And how awful I can be when I donāt get my way.
It has taught me that without a doubt you become like your partner so make sure when you choose one , his flaws are what you adore the most. Those are the parts that will rub off .
Like have you ever wondered why is it that the worse of your parents is what sticks and little of the best of them does too?ā¦ or is that just a weird and unrealistic observation I have come to see for no reason at all?
This has taught me that I can forget how to have fun and be myself. Ways that you can have fun without harming the health by the way!
okay, whatās my point where am I going with this??? Maybe I donāt have a point. Maybe Iām just venting. Maybe someone can relateā¦ maybe Iām speaking to someone. Maybe this is my way of having fun.
I want to have fun again! I want to be a yay type of woman. Sure, not the drunk me with little self control and just wilding. But the side of me that does not worry about a man on the level that it breaks or āmakesā my smile. My being. My spark. Itās 3am as I am writing this.
Maybe Iāll go live and share this with you all.
Maybe I donāt want to be a maybe type of human. I want to be free to smile because I allow myself to smile and actually enjoy to smile!
ps: last, that no one elseās insecurities darkens your most beautiful quality and highest spark š your smile!
